Tristyn Walton

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The book “A Return to Love” by Marianne Willamson is and probably will forever be one of the most meaningful and inspirational books to me. In this book Marianne says something that ultimately saved my life. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.” This quote is the most meaningful to me because growing up many would think I had it easy, a light skin girl with long pretty brown hair; but the truth is being light skin was what hurt me the most. You see the black guys made me feel like Star Jones before surgery and the white guys made me feel like Star Jones after. I was teased every day and had resolved that the only resolution was to get rid of the problem, and I was the problem. As I reached for the pills I remembered that very quote that mother shared with me and in that very moment I felt as if everything changed and the quote that my mother shared with me finally meant something. Reading “A return to Love” and my mom pointing that quote out to me literally saved my life and that I am most grateful for.